Saturday, August 25, 2012

Twilight: New Moon (Book quotes)

Twilight: New Moon

Edward- "Don't do this," he pleaded.
Bella- You wanted me to be human, I reminded him. Well watch me.
Edward- "Please. For me."
Bella- But you won't stay with me any other way.
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Bella -Where?  There was nothing but the darkness. There was no place to swim to.
Edward- " Stop that!" he ordered. "Don't you dare give up!...

Bella's thoughts - I was almost happy that it was over. This was an easier death than others I'd faced. Oddly peaceful.

I thought briefly of the clichés, about how you were suppose to see your life flash before your eyes. I was so much luckier. Who wanted to see a rerun, anyway? ....

Happiness. It made the whole dying thing pretty bearable.
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Bella's thoughts - If Romeo was really gone never to come back, would it have mattered whether or not Juliet had taken Paris up on his offer? Maybe she should have tried to settle into the leftover scraps of her life that were left behind. Maybe that would have been as close to happiness as she could get.

Harry's heart attack had pushed everything suddenly into perspective for me. Perspective that I didn't want to see, because if I admitted to the truth of it- it would mean that I would have to change my ways. Could I live like that?
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 Bella's thoughts - I'd have to tell him everything, I knew that. It was the only way to be fair. I'd have to explain it right, so that he'd know I wasn't settling, that he was much too good for me. He already knew I was broken, that part wouldn't surprise him, but he needed to know the extent of it.  ....

I knew he would take me in spite of it all. He wouldn't even pause to think it through. ....

I would have to commit to this-- commit as much of me as there was left, every one of the broken pieces. It was the only way to be fair to him. Would I? Could I?

Would it be so wrong to make Jacob happy? Even if the love I felt for him was no more than a weak echo of what I was capable of, even if my heart was far away, wandering and grieving after my fickle Romeo, would it be so very wrong?
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Charlie talking to Alice:

"She went back to school and work, she ate and slept and did her homework. She answered when someone asked her a direct question. But she was...empty. Her eyes were blank.

There were lots of little things - she wouldn't listen to music anymore; I found a bunch of CDs broken in the trash. She didn't read; she wouldn't be in the same room when the TV was on, not that she watched it so much before. I finially figured it out - she was avoiding everything that might remind her of...him."    ....

 "I don't know... even with Jacob, now and then I see something in her eyes, and I wonder if I've ever grasped how much pain she's really in. [It's] not normal at all. Not like someone had left her, but like someone had died."

Bella's thoughts - It was like someone had died - like I had died. Because it had been more than just losing the truest of true loves, as if that were not enough to kill anyone. It was also losing a whole future, a whole family - the whole life I had chosen...

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Bella's thoughts in response to Edward's gentle kisses - Each time it was like an electric to my long dormant heart. The sound of its beating seemed to fill the entire room.

It was heaven - right smack in the middle of hell.

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Edward - "You weren't going to let go," he whispered. "I could see that. I didn't want to do it - it felt like it would kill me to do it- but I knew if I couldn't convince you that I didn't love you anymore, it would just take that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought I'd moved on, so would you." ....

Edward- "I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn't want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept- as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!"  ...

Bella - "It never made sense for you to love me."...

Edward- "Yesterday, when I touched you, you were so ... hesitant, so careful, and yet still the same. I need to know why. Is it because I'm too late? Because I've hurt you too much?

Because you have moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be... quite fair. I won't contest your decision. So don't try to spare my feelings, please- just tell me now whether or not you can still love me, after everything I've done to you. Can you?" he whispered. ....

Bella - "Don't promise me anything," I whispered. If I let myself hope, and it came to nothing...that would kill me.

Edward - "You think I'm lying to you now?"

Bella- "No- not lying." I shook my head, trying to think it through coherently. To explain the hypothesis that he did love me, while staying objective, clinical, so I would fall into the trap of hoping. "You could mean it ...now. But what about tomorrow, when you think about all the reasons you left in the first place?"....

Bella's thoughts - I thought back over those last days before he left me, tired to see them through the filter of what he was telling me now. From that perspective, imagining that he'd left me while loving me, left me for me, his brooding and cold silences took on a different meaning.  ...

Edward - "Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly, everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything." ....

Edward - " It was like my heart was gone- like I was hollow. Like I'd left everything that was inside me here with you." ...

Bella - "I thought it was just me. Lots of pieces of me went missing too. I haven't been able to really breathe in so long."

Edward - 'Your hold is permanent and unbreakable," he whispered. "Never doubt that." ....

Edward - He nodded. "I'm worse than the Volturi," he said grimly. "I guess I've earned that."

Bella - I rolled my eyes. "The worst the Volturi can do is kill me." ... "You can leave me," I explained. "The Volturi, Victoria...they're nothing compared to that." ...

Edward - If there was only a way to make you see that I can't leave you," he whispered. "Time, I suppose, will be the only to convince you." 

Bella - I liked the idea of time. "Okay," agreed. .....

Bella's thoughts - The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance,or time. And no matter how much more special, or beautiful or brilliant or perfect than me he might be, he was as irreversibly altered as I was.